Begin Again

It's been a year (or more) I don't write on this blog. Haha.

Baru nyadar, kayaknya blog ini jadi sebuah pelarian dikala galau, melihat postingan-postingan sebelumnya. Well, maybe that's true. Cause now i want write that...... i watch it begin again! (lol, kinda Taylor swift's song lyrics)

Mmmm, blog, sejak terakhir kali, akhirnya, mungkin, kali ini bener2 jatuh. You know waht i mean? jatuh ..... yah you know lah. That 5 letters. Um, 4 letters in english. Got it, huh? I hope so, soalnya rada geli nulisnya.

Wait. What is fall in .... mean?
Let's see

“She wasnt exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard and she could only pray that he was feeling the same way.” 

― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

Okay, I exactly feel that. Don't know when it happened or started.

“Falling in love is like getting hit by a truck and yet not being mortally wounded. just sick to your stomach, high one minute, low the next. Starving hungry but unable to eat. hot, cold, forever horny, full of hope and enthusiasm, with momentary depressions that wipe you out.

It is also not being able to remove the smile from your face, loving life with a mad passionate intensity, and feeling ten years younger.

Love does not appear with any warning signs. You fall into it as if pushed from a high diving board. No time to think about what's happening. It's inevitable. An event you can't control. A crazy, heart-stopping, roller-coaster ride that just has to take its course.” 

― Jackie Collins, Lucky

Ngg, okay, I dont get the hit by truck part. And the unable to eat feeling. But it's true that sometimes I catch myself smiling when I thinking of him, with any warning signs, just suddenly appear on my mind.

“The bottom line is that we never fall for the person we're supposed to.” 
― Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

Nah, mungkin ini bagian yg paling ngena. Kadang orang yg kita kagumi dan kita pikir we're fall to them malah sebenarnya we didn't fall. ngerti ga maksudnya? kita ga tau bakal jatuh ke siapa, semuanya tiba2 dan ga bisa dikendalikan. mungkin hanya suatu tindakan kecil yg bua kita jatuh, atau cuman percakapan kecil yg ternyata means so much di masa depan, or even now.

That's it. You know blog. I watch it begin again, I finally fall again. After a long time.