Begin Again

It's been a year (or more) I don't write on this blog. Haha.

Baru nyadar, kayaknya blog ini jadi sebuah pelarian dikala galau, melihat postingan-postingan sebelumnya. Well, maybe that's true. Cause now i want write that...... i watch it begin again! (lol, kinda Taylor swift's song lyrics)

Mmmm, blog, sejak terakhir kali, akhirnya, mungkin, kali ini bener2 jatuh. You know waht i mean? jatuh ..... yah you know lah. That 5 letters. Um, 4 letters in english. Got it, huh? I hope so, soalnya rada geli nulisnya.

Wait. What is fall in .... mean?
Let's see

“She wasnt exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard and she could only pray that he was feeling the same way.” 

― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

Okay, I exactly feel that. Don't know when it happened or started.

“Falling in love is like getting hit by a truck and yet not being mortally wounded. just sick to your stomach, high one minute, low the next. Starving hungry but unable to eat. hot, cold, forever horny, full of hope and enthusiasm, with momentary depressions that wipe you out.

It is also not being able to remove the smile from your face, loving life with a mad passionate intensity, and feeling ten years younger.

Love does not appear with any warning signs. You fall into it as if pushed from a high diving board. No time to think about what's happening. It's inevitable. An event you can't control. A crazy, heart-stopping, roller-coaster ride that just has to take its course.” 

― Jackie Collins, Lucky

Ngg, okay, I dont get the hit by truck part. And the unable to eat feeling. But it's true that sometimes I catch myself smiling when I thinking of him, with any warning signs, just suddenly appear on my mind.

“The bottom line is that we never fall for the person we're supposed to.” 
― Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

Nah, mungkin ini bagian yg paling ngena. Kadang orang yg kita kagumi dan kita pikir we're fall to them malah sebenarnya we didn't fall. ngerti ga maksudnya? kita ga tau bakal jatuh ke siapa, semuanya tiba2 dan ga bisa dikendalikan. mungkin hanya suatu tindakan kecil yg bua kita jatuh, atau cuman percakapan kecil yg ternyata means so much di masa depan, or even now.

That's it. You know blog. I watch it begin again, I finally fall again. After a long time.

ENCHANTED - Taylor Swift - Adam Young (owl city)

[Taylor]
There I was again tonight

Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired lonely place

Walls of insincerity,

Shifting eyes and vacancy

Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "Have we met? "

Across the room your silhouette

Starts to make its way to me

The playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks

Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up

2 AM, who do you love?

I wonder 'til I'm wide awake

And now I'm pacing back and forth

Wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say, "Hey,

It was enchanting to meet you,

All I know is I was enchanted to meet you"

*This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

This night is flawless, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page

Not where the story line ends

My thoughts will echo your name

Until I see you again

These are the words I held back

As I was leaving too soon

I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

back to *

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

[Adam]

(cover/reply to Taylor Swift's song)

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place

Walls of insincerity

Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"

Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me

The playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

*This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you too

The lingering question kept me up

2AM, who do you love?

I wondered till I'm wide awake

Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say,

Hey it was enchanting to meet you

Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

back to *

This is me praying that this was the very first page

Not where the story line ends

My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again

These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon

I was enchanted to meet you too

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

Taylor I'll spend my whole life wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you too

I was never in love with someone else

I never had somebody waiting on me

'Cause you were all of my dreams come true

And I just wish you knew

Taylor I was so in love with you

Danbo - Taylor Swift - Superman

"...I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him"

"...I always forget to tell you, I love you, I love you from the very first day"

".. I watch superman fly away, you've got a busy day today.."

don't forget..don't forget, about me......

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may I post something not important?

cuman mau tulis, kemunculan di TL bikin nyesek.
hahaha galau sudah mencapai puncak maksimal.

it's SUCKS men

yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

sekian abad tidak menulis.
bingung mau mulai darimana. terlalu banyak yang terlewatkan sejak postingan terakhir.

sekedar info blog *yang mungkin sudah lupa siapa majikannya*
sekarang sy sudah pindah fakultas. perjalanan pindah dan perjuangan nya tdk usah diceritakan, krn postingan kali ini sy cuman mau curhat. ok.

lihat judulnya, liat kata yang tercapslock. sy betul2 sedang sebal dan gila sekarang. tunggu! menurut kamus sebenarnya sucks itu apa???
*brb buka google translate*

oke, sy tdk salah. sucks artinya menyebalkan.
yaaaaa!!!
menyebalkan men!
apa yang menyebalkan?
apa?
apa?
apa?

jengjengjengjeeeeeeng

sy jengkel, sebal, bete, apapun namanya dengan ketidakpastian. hahaha sebenarnya ketidakpastiannya itu dari mana???? dari saya ji jugaaaaaaaaaa
yasudaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah jengekel sama diri sendiri sajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
*mulai gila.

really, I'm gonna crazy rite now. I've tried to busy, to do anything, all the time!! but, come back home and become alone, like this time, I am thinking of that-suck-thinking-and-must-not-be-thinking again.
and it really truly seriously makes me crazy!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA IDIOT!!!
*see?how insane I am !'

I shouldn't must NOT open twitter, and stalking. because it will make me more more and moreeeeee insane.

HAHAHAHA siapa suruh tidak jujur!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA
07.08pm itu terakhir dan yg buat itu terakhir kau sendiriii!!! HAHAHAHA. bodohnyaaaaaaaa
*attention! I'm talking to myself*
terakhir liaaat.. mmmm,... mari menghitung..
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tadaaaa 52 jam nyaris 53 jam sudah sy tidak lihat. pantas sy galau gila.

hey you. yes. you. how are you?